The beta results are in

I went in for my first beta yesterday and it was 600! Thats pretty high according to the charts, more in line with twins, the average twin beta at the same day I was, was 590, singleton was 297 but after talking to many ladies I've heard of twin numbers being as low as 300 for my day and as high as 2000, so its really hard to say at this point if its 1 or 2 babies, we won't know until the first u/s which will be between 6-7 weeks, so in about 2 to 2.5 weeks.

We go back in tomorrow for a repeat beta to make sure the levels are doubling and then they will schedule my u/s, I am going to try to schedule a little closer to 7 weeks to have a better chance of seeing the heartbeat/s.

Symptoms are already starting for me, I am very very tired no matter how much sleep I get, I just can't get enough sleep. I am also having big food aversions and nothing but salty things like soup sounds good to me, I am completely turned off by my normally biggest craving, which is sweets and desserts! The thought of something sweet makes me nausous. I am feeling quite yuck more at night than in the morning, especially after a meal, just feeling over all blah. I am 4 weeks 4 days today, I can't wait to get to 5 weeks so I can see my little baby ticker go from a ball of cells to an actual figure that looks like a baby :).

I wanted to share the picture we plan to share on facebook when we're ready to announce it to everyone.

While he hasn't fully grasped whats happening, he is insisting he gets a sister, though I've tried to explain to him that I cannot choose, its whatever the Lord gives us.

I am completely humbled by my Savior's Grace

Well we took a pregnancy test at 8:00am this morning and we got a beautiful BFP! I am in complete shock, awe, and most of all humbled before my Lord and Savior! I feel happy, excited, nervous, and unworthy of such blessings all at the same time. I am so happy that my 30 months of trying to conceive a second time have come to an end but at the same time I am nervous in this delicate stage of pregnancy, not even quite 4 weeks, so I fear for the safety of my sweet baby/babies in my womb, I will feel so much better when I see the heartbeat/s and see him/her/them on ultrasound, here are my tests from this morning, 7dp5dt.

It is quite surreal, it hasn't fully sunk in, 30 long, painful months and we've been blessed, Jacob is going to be a big brother! Thank you so much to my dear heavenly father Jesus Christ, thank you for hearing my prayers and blessing me with the desires of my heart, I am over the moon!

Very nervous to test tomorrow

Well tomorrow is the day I take my first HPT, I am terrified, after 30 months (not including the 26 months trying for my son 5 years ago) of nothing but negatives and heart ache, I am finding it hard to believe I could actually see a positive, my mind is trying to imagine good news and seeing a positive but its out weighed with fear of so much failure that I've experienced. No surprising James this time, we've decided to do the test together in the morning, I will admit, while its still early, if I don't see a least somewhat of a line, I will lose all hope.

Please pray for me, I pray that I will get a positive result tomorrow and actually allow myself to believe this could be it, I want the little lives that were put in my uterus so badly, I cannot even describe it, until tomorrow.......

4dp5dt and update on my remaining embryos

I am currently 4dp5dt, I will say that the last two days I have had period like cramps, mild but they were noticable, today I felt no cramps but I did feel sharp twinges in my lower tummy, I have also been extremely tired but I am assuming its far too soon to be feeling tried from pregnancy though it was my first symptom with Jacob though I believe it happened around 14-15 days past ovulation where as I am only considered 9 days past currently. I am praying so hard for these little lives in me, while I know twins will be hard the first few months, I pray both my embies make it, I don't want to lose either of them.

We got a call late yesterday that our 3rd embryo turned into a excellent AA- quality by day 6 and looked beautiful so it was frozen, they also told us surprisingly one of the others they thought had no hope of survival made it to blast too but it was of fair/poor quality but they frozen it too, so we have 2 frozen babies for future use, I am so happy and blessed!

I am praying multiple times a day that this is the Lords will for us and that we will have a successful pregnancy, we've already been telling Jacob we're working on a brother or sister or both for him! He keeps saying he wants a sister :) ....though I think he would be happy with either, he loves babies and is always attracted to them when he sees them in public, he will be a great big brother!

This will probably be my last post before I take a home pregnancy test, our blood test at the fertility center is next Wednesday, June 27th, though technically that will be 16 days past ovulation, pregnancy can be detected days sooner than that so I will probably take a home test a few days earlier, until then, prayers we have good news to share soon!

Our egg transfer is done

Sorry for the lack of posting, I have been so consumed by everything lately and I've been trying to get lots of rest. We got to Augusta around 9:30am for a 9:45am transfer on Saturday the 16th, we were told that only 3 of our 8 embies made it to blast, one excellent AA quality and two good BB quality, they transferred the AA and the better of the two BB and wanted to watch the 3rd BB to see how it grew to day 6, one of the 8 embies completely arrested and the other 4 had little hope to grow much more, but I was still holding out hope for them and my 3rd blast to grow well to day 6, here we are right before egg transfer, this is not my best look but its what 3 hours of sleep, no make up, a hair net, and a hospital gown gets you :)

And this is me right before they placed my beautiful embryo's in my uterus :)

And these are my precious babies :)

AA quality on the left, my BB on the right

And here they are placed in my uterus, there is a little circle around them

Embryo's safely in my uterus, snuggle in babies!

Egg retrieval and fertilization report

I have been slacking in the posting department but I have been consumed quite a bit lately. We triggered with ovidrel on Saturday night, the 9th at 11:45pm and were scheduled for retrieval for 11:00am Monday morning the 12th. I felt in my heart that I may have been triggered too early as I had only been stimming 7 days, the average being 9-12 days but being that my E2 levels were rising so fast, they didn't want to risk OHSS so they triggered me.

I got to Augusta around 10:20am the day of retrieval and they took me back around 11:00am, I was put under general anesthesia and remember nothing, when I woke up they told me they retrieved 19 eggs and that they would call me the following day with the fertilization report, I was so happy with that number of eggs.

I got the call around 1:00pm on Tuesday and I was slightly disappointed but need to remember that the Lord is going to provide the perfect amount of embies for us, they told me of the 19 eggs retrieved, only 11 were mature which wasn't shocking since I was triggered so early. Of those 11 mature, 8.5 fertilized, the 9th only half way fertilized and the other 8 fertilized normally. While 8 is a good number, I am terrified of how many more will drop off before day 5 and my RE wants a 5 day transfer. I have prayed all along that the Lord would give me the perfect amount of embies to go along with how many kids we're mean't to have so in my heart I always wanted at least 2 to transfer and 2-4 to freeze for later use or in case the fresh transfer failed, so I've prayed for 4-6 total by day 5.

I will be awaiting the call tomorrow which will be day 3 to let me know how many of those 8 have continued to grow and to know the quality of them, I am quite nervous and have been praying for my 8 precious little embies so much in the last two days, while I know its rare for all the fertilized embies to continue to grow, I am still praying they all make it, I don't want to lose any of them. I am also praying for quality, I really hope that we have great quality embies to help give us a better shot of this working.

I am a bit of a nervous wreak right now but I am hoping for good news tomorrow. I have been very bloated the past 2 days and downing tons of gatorade, it helps but I have been uncomfortable, I don't think I have OHSS at all, thank goodness, but I am certainly ready to feel less bloated. Until tomorrow, that is our update, thank you for all your prayers everyone!

Egg retrieval date is in!

I meant to update yesterday but I've been so busy, we have an egg retrieval date! Monday (tomorrow) at 11:00am. I went in Saturday morning to see that my follies grew quite a bit in 24 hours, I have at least 11 over 16mm and several smaller ones around 13-14mm that may catch up but due to my E2 levels being way up, they decided to have me trigger with ovidrel at 11:45pm last night, they are trying to avoid OHSS, they also had me take another last dose of 150 IU of follistim with the ovidrel.

I just got a call from the anesthesiologist who explained what I will be going through. I am quite uncomfortable off and on at this point, not too bad on cramps but bloated, I am having to wear sundresses daily because anything on my waist is uncomfortable, I am a bit nausous and having a hard time getting comfy at night because I am a stomach sleeper, but I have to remember this will all be worth it in the end!

Well, thats all I have to update at this point, I will let you know tomorrow how many eggs we get, praying for good quality!